Dungu

Oh God,

saya ini memang dungu.
kadang-kadang mereka tak mahu faham saya.
mereka guna bahasa terlalu saintifik.
masakan cerita tentang cinta juga guna bahasa yang boleh saya kira pelik.

Oh God,

saya mahu meminta-minta dari-Mu, God.
saya mahu jadi pandai sedikit dari manusia-manusia dungu yang lain.
bukan apa, jika saya jadi pandai,
saya boleh tolong si gila-gila itu,
guna bahasa lebih antik
lebih jelas
dan mudah difahami oleh
dungu-dungu macam saya.

Terima kasih, God.

I like it this way

i will never

  be happy,

never.

i know,

  but i like it this way.

you know, 

  the lingered memories,

  the old smiles and laughter,

i miss it.

but still,

  i like it this way.

i like it i'm lonely

i like it when i'm talking alone

  with my own-self

i like it when i'm laughing

  to my own lame jokes,

  as loud as i can

i like it,

  i like it this way.

all alone, and lonely.

overthinking and crying.

Ummar Haqq,

Sayangku,

Satu-satunya puteraku.

Dunia dan akhiratku.

Tidak sudikah kamu menjenguk ibumu?

Tidak rindukah kamu pada aku, anakku?

  

  Tuhanku, berikanlah keizinan untuk aku dakap anakku dalam tidurku

  Tuhanku, berikanlah sedetik waktu untuk aku kucup pipi anakku

  Sesungguhnya aku terlalu rindu, Tuhanku

  Rayuku, rayuku sebagai hamba hina-Mu, Tuhanku

  Izinkan aku, Tuhanku

  Izinkan aku

Ibumu selalu rindu

  dan terus-terus merindu

Sayangku,

Satu-satunya puteraku.

Dunia dan akhiratku.

Tenang

Tenang.

tenang namun hingar


bukan niatku mahu menoleh

kenangan yang rakus mencengkam minda

aku jadi benci sama aku sendiri

aku jadi jelek sama diri ini

selalu saja tewas di masa lalu


mereka bilang, "terus kuat, sahabat! terus kuat!"

ya, aku terus kuat...

ya semuanya, aku memang terus dan harus kuat

heh,

bagaimana mahu terus maju jika kaki masih terpaku?

mana bisa aku lupa?

tiap kali aku bertelanjang

parut yang lama aku pegang


itu hasil cinta aku dan dia

cinta?

benar ia cinta atau ia hanya serakah?

Lazy Sunshine

And then,

YOU,

Came into my life.

Hey,

Aturan Tuhan itu pelik

Aku temu kamu,

Dalam keramaian,

Aku mula lihat kamu,

Unrequited Love

Sometimes you find yourself trying to let go of something
But it's like you have been swimming in the ocean
For a very very long time
And you feel like you belong there
You are one with the waves
The warmth of the water
And your body moves in sync with the ocean
And you swim around just trying to stay afloat
Then you get tired and you start to drown
And you swim back to land
When you get there you just feel so heavy
Because you lost touch with gravity for so long
And you collapse on the beach
As you try to find balance again
And then your feet finds gravity
You stand up and you look at the horizon one last time
And just know that no matter how beautiful the sea was
And how good it made you feel it was never yours for you to keep
And someday's you will miss it, you know
And you feel yourself moving with the waves
And you dream of diving in
Then you realize your feet was meant for land
And not cut out for the ocean
Maybe you're meant to climb trees
Or hike hills or just run really fast
Letting go is not easy
There is nothing quite like swimming in the ocean
Just like how it's natural for your feet to find gravity
It's natural for you to let go
And find your true purpose in life again
The sea is the sea
And you are just you
I have to let go
But sometimes I find myself waking up at the beach again

-Yuna