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she's crying to her sleep. she's been holding the tears. but she can't. it was impossible to not crying when she misses her family. she misses her self. her old self. she's been wanting that life again. she wants that life again. but she didn't want to re-build that life. she asked God. what if. again. again. again. she keep making mistakes. she's not strong enough. she's tired. she doesn't have any energy left to fight again. cos she keep losing. she'll keep losing. she's a loser.